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Sunday, January 11, 2015

The Truest Truth

We've sung this song a few times at church, and I find I sing it from the depths of my heart, understanding God's love like never before.  Well, understanding is probably a bit bold.  I find that I have encountered his love in a way that I never had before.

Through the darkness
Through the fire
Through my wicked heart’s desire
Your love remains, Your love remains
Though I stumble
Though I falter
Through my weakness You are strong
Your love remains, Your love remains

Oh my, my soul, it cries
Oh my, my soul, it cries out
Soul, it cries out
Soul, it cries, it cries out

Through my failure
Through my heartache
Through my healing
In my pain Your love remains, Your love remains
Though I stumble
Though I falter
Through my weakness You are strong
Your love remains, Your love remains

The past year I faced darkness and struggle that I did not expect. I found myself shaken to my core. As I cried out, I heard nothing.

Except "I love you."

Again and again. And again.

So basic. Yet so profound. No matter what, his love remains.

I want my heart to rejoice that I am loved by the creator of the universe. I want my confidence in his goodness to be firmly rooted in that love, not swayed by circumstances (good or bad). I imagine my life would be different, rather my experience of my life would be different, were I to truly live out of my deeply loved identity.

But the truth is, I don't. I am ravaged by anxiety. I am sometimes depressed. I can't always convince myself to hope. I feel broken. Which is why I am so incredibly grateful to be reminded that his love remains. Always extended to me, always calling me to the truth that is truer than my feelings, my emotions, my circumstances--the love of God, generously, extravagantly, lavished on me.




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